Leap of Creation Mega Concert

I noticed I haven't update in about 3 weeks?.. 


First is the Leap of Creation Mega concert which was held on 6th June at Jerudong Amphitheater.. I learnt that my music school organized a concert every two years. So 2010.. next one would be 2012. Maybe by then I've already reached Grade 5 or higher then I can request to perform my solo. Amin!!~~~ I want to perform solo~~


The concert was really beautiful. While I was in our dressing room, I was really scared because the kids there are either from royalties or ambassadors kids.. So I feel like really.. awkward around them, even though they're still kids. I made friends with some of them, Evan (Lily Chiam's son) is really cute~~ And he's performing for violin, guitar and he danced the opening theme of the concert. He danced ballroom with a really cute kid!~~~


While waiting for our turn to perform (I was in the choir, because since this is my first year in the school, well.. Gain experience and work my way up, so choir first), there is this really cute guy next door (next to our dressing room). He's a guitarist, Grade 4 I think. Really hot but I seriously think that he's younger than me and I don't date juniors. Everybody thought I was 16.. yet I've already reached 19 XD They even mistaken me as chinese.. not because of my name, but my eyes. 


Anyway this guy.. He's really cute T_T I was hanging out in the hallway; the room was packed, there were literally 400+ musicians under Expression Music so you can imagine how pack the room is.. We filled every room except VIPs. So I was leaning on the wall with Liyana, my new friend from Tutong, when this guy is staring at me. I feel so awkward that I pretend to listen to some music but actually drooling over Calvin with Liyana. Calvin is one of the tutor at the school. He's under the rock school which is just below our class and teaches drum and guitar. He's really hot. Kim Junsu hot.


The guy is with his friends, he's a guitarist about to perform so he wore this white uniform like mine, but the painting is green, mine is red for choir. He's just.. staring at me.. once or twice I looked up and actually caught him smiling at me. I thought he was smiling at someone besides me but at that moment Liyana went inside the room so it was just me alone >_< When Liyana came back I told her and she insisted that the guy is into me. I said thart there is just no way!!! Then we did some experiment. About 10 minutes after that the guy leaned on the wall besides me. I was listening to Junsu (really listening to my ipod), but I could feel him getting closer to me. So I walked away and hide besides Liyana, the wall is curved so he thought I went back inside our room. He followed me.. .. He freaking followed me!!! Until he stumble upon me right besides Liyana and he laughed as he saw me. He said hi and I reply him back. God my heart stop beating for a moment and lucky it was our call so I hurriedly went on stage without looking back. GOD!!! Liyana and I were practically giggling while lining up. And I blushed when she said, "See?? I told you he likes you~~" >_<


The concert lasts about 3 hours. Started around 7.30PM and ended around 11pm. Between each intervals of our performances, Liyana, Crystal (a guitarist, she's really cute) and me hanged out at backstage where they put a really big plasma TV for us to watch the performances live. I couldn't help but to scream when Calvin performed his solo!!!! Liyana gagged me >_<  Dad took his picture and I'm just so.. *melting*.. From behind Calvin sensei really look like Kim Junsu. Especially when he play his drum!!! Like Junsu in Rising sun >_<


I get a chance to perform with Zul F too =D He is really a good singer. I sang my heart out during our performance. The songs we performed are from Lilly Chiam's second album, Your Presence. Here are some of the pictures taken that night.

Me and Liyana

Ernie with Liyana

Pose~~

Make-up time

One of the violinist

Guests of honor

Lilly Chiam's daugther

They're really cute~~

A vocalist performing "You are not alone - MJ"

That's me between the kids >_<

Pei Pei performing "It's alright" with us

Dancers from The Ministry of Youth, Culture and Sports

She performed beautifully

Someone has a major crush on this guy. Not me "-___-

What a week..

After the trip from Jerudong Park, I was physically fatigue.. I wanted to spent my saturday resting but a friend of mine dropped by XD


Its been a while he haven't come over. I am applying for a Japanese Scholarship for 2011 intake and he happen to have the notes I needed to study. Thank you very much~~ That was a really life-saving =D


Sunday, mum bought us shopping for groceries and stuffs. My feet were sore after 5 hours >_< By the time I went home, mum promised me to send me off to a Reflexiology center. HAHHAHA


Monday, Kin and Rafi paid me a visit in the morning XD To discuss about some stuffs about our crew.


Tuesday? The best I think!!! I hanged out with Ridhwan, a contestant of WGT 2 and a very professional dancer. I learnt that he's a very adventurous youth. He play trading card game, especially Yu-Gi-Oh, studied in Melbourne, Australia, is a part time choreographer and a very open-minded person. I feel at ease hanging out with him. That's when Relentless gave us a call. They called me first saying that we're up for a performance on Friday, while at the time Red says 'hi'. They were surprised and called Red afterwards to informed that Red is up too. I said 'hi'. HAHAHAHHAHA We laughed so hard because they were confuse. We told them that we are currently hanging out together XD


We just talk and hang out and talk about life until around 4.30PM because my mum went to look for me.


Mum was covering for a competition between schools and college at the Mall. I told her I was with Red (short form I have for Ridhwan XD), she invited him over for a coffee at Secret Recipe, but he had to go. After that as promised, my mum bought me in for a massage. Reflexiology. It hurts so much T_T but I can endure it.


Wednesday.. Oh yeah Kin and Rafi came again. I've told them about the performance so we just trained.


Thursday. I was so tired but my family took me off to dinner T_T


Today.... AWESOME~~~ I get to play my principal's grand piano. She's Lily Chiam who runs Expression Music XD It was awesome.. the grand piano is just a really piece of art. Its a Yamaha.


Afterwards we performed at the Mall and my family get to see me performed for the first time~~ Adi came (he's my ex) and was awesome~~~ Our director (founder); Elaine, came too to give us a support. I met Red again, he looks like he almost fainted after a 3 minutes hard solo moments >_< I offered him my drink.


Mum was being generous because she treated all 6 of us to dinner at KFC. Elaine, Kin, Rafi, Fawzul, Adi and me XD It was totally fun hanging out with them. Zul bought me a mobile keychain~~ Which accidentally matches Adi's >_<

Kin in the car

Fawzul in the car

Adi and Fawzul

Adi and Elaine

Fawzul and me. My dad at the back XD

Jerudong Park Playground

Boy today must be the most awesome day I've experienced for months!!!! For starter I woke up pretty early and helped my mum cleaned up the house. I was surprised by my own enthusiasm in helping out my mum XD


Then my piano class came and instead of the usual short 30mins, I get to spent almost an hour with my teacher~~ 30 minutes practical and 15 minutes music theory lesson. It was fun!!! I get to play my favourite song too from DBSK (TVXQ/Tohoshinki); Darkness Eyes. My teacher said that it's very easy and the chords are repeated so I should be able to play it. I'll practice more at home and let her listen to it on my next lesson =D


Our Leap of Creation concert is coming soon, I think they've changed the date from 6th June to 5th June, and it would be held at Jerudong Amphitheater. The concert is based on charity so I wonder how it would be like. I'll be in the choir group since I'm new. 


Miss Michelle said that after the concert she'll be registering me to the Trinity Guild Hall exam in October and November for both Practical and Theory, which costs around a $100+ each T_T


Plus my level one piano textbook would be finished once I've completed the final 7 songs in like.. two weeks? So she told me to buy the level 2 book then promoting me to Grade 2. By the end of the year I'll be sitting for a Grade 2 exam instead of 1 eventhough I'm just a novice >_< 


Quite an achievement and I'm glad my hard works pays off =D


When I've reached home, I took a break and play Persona 3 on PS2 in my room, but soon after my brother dragged me to Jerudong Park Playground to play Go-Kart. Its been our wish to play G-Kart together with our family friend, Nasrul.. And today we did~~


We played Bumper Car, Pirate coven, Pirate Ship, G0-Kart, some kids playground and went for a boat ride. 

The roundabout at Jerudong Park

The logo on the on the fence

Bumper car~~ Boy I'm hving a fobia plying this. When Nasrul hit me, I almost flew out of my car >_<

Next we played this, well only Abdul and Nasrul. Abdul almost throw up >_< He never played this before, plus he drank coke before playing this so I guess that's just natural.

Go-Kart!!! We've been playing this for like.. 3 times. I think the guards are bored to see our faces XD I ranked number 2 twice. Nasrul is not so lucky today, he ranked the 3rd XD Abdul on the other hand is a genius, he even got offered by the guards to work there, or even enter a competition =D

This is how one of the boats looked like. Abdul and I go for double.. Why you ask? I'm scared of water!!! And Nasrul go for the single. Even though I'm wearing a life jacket, I'm still scared. I screamed the whole tour >_<

Then here are our funny pictures of the day XD

Nasrul holding out his ticket

He looked like 8 here XD

I feel younger already~~

My brother looked like 10!!~~

Nasrul and I. Behind us is the boat riding pond.

Time for me to go to sleep XD

Luck increases~

Okay so a week has passed and guess what. Money came pouring in. Mum bought me a set of intimo, an elken product and it can lasts at least 8 months. Cool!!~ I don't have to go to the store to buy the pads again. Next on mum's agenda is the Internal beauty which costs a thousand and UP II starter set. Awesome mum!!~~

This is Intimo

Eternal Beauty

UPII

She paid for my music school, Miss Michelle was relieved XD I managed to bought the books she told me to thus my study time has increased to 45mins per week. YAY!!!~~


Yes mum gave me $100, which I spent $20 to buy a guitar cabe, a bass pick and a guitar pick (I lost mine) and a capo for my guitar. Then mum bought me an outfit online which original cost $30.80, but the seller gave me for #28 instead. Aww~~ The dress is so feminine, I love it~~~ Thank you mum~~


As for my hair, I've bought a Wellastrate product a month ago and I gave it a try, now my hair is straight XD Well not entirely.. T_T But I've saved like $100 for not going to the salon.. "-___- I love my hair the way it is.


Oh yeah, I was bored yesterday and filmed this. Check it out. Me dancing. I was so surprised by the time I'm checking it out just now, there are already 168 viewers, less than 21 hours!!! >_<


My friend from Singapore commented on how he likes my outfit and the way I danced. Thanks~ I'm not a pro, but I'll train more =D


I've done a vocal cover too. Check it out here. God Knows.


Dad got me the form for the Japanese Scholarship 2011. COOL~~ I've tried out last year, but obviously I didn't make it. So when I look back at the copy of my form from last year, I realised that I made so many mistakes.. ARGH~~ This time I'm gonna triple check before I submit it and make sure I choose the right subject!!


God bless me, I want to study there. It's been my dream. I even choose my university, Osaka university, to study Biotechnology.

Oh yeah..

So I've left a text for the shop, stating out my name and wishing to apply for the post.. but up until today there are still no reply. Hmm.. Maybe I should drop by anytime soon. Fees. Oh my gosh.. My music school fees are not yet paid.. if later by 8th, I have to pay double T_T 


Mum said that she'll pay for it this monday, though I've reminded her that she need to pay extra, she said its ok. Also she said that she owes me $100. YIPPE~~ But.. I dunno what I should spent it for.. Maybe a new hairstyle XD


My birthday is coming up.. which is on 12th June, but before that there's my boyfriend's on the May 30th. I wonder what I should get for him.. Clothes?? Or cake?.. Anyhow for my birthday this year I've planned something specials. I shall rent a bouncer, set up tent for guests, I think I'm gonna invite my dance crew and Red to perform, as well as Bro7herhodz crew. If I'm lucky, I can get together my band.. That will be hard though.. Which band? Lolly de Sora or Triablos? The thing is I want to sing myself.. Maybe I shall collaborate with different musicians? I can think of Abg Bolo and Abg Akira, and Haziq or Qays. 


I'm in a dilemma.. If I invite Lolly de Sora, I will sing, but there will be no bassist and drummer or guitarist.. "-__- Band conflict.. but if I don't invite them, they will say I've forgotten them. If I invite Triablos, I'll be playing bass, but I won't be singing. If I collaborate with my uncles.. That'll be awesome~~ But that is if they want to. I have to prepare the money again to pay them. I don't want them to play for free.


I've done a few sketches this nowadays. Here they are.

I sketched this for my boyfriend. hehe

Just some Yaoi couple. My first time drawing Yaoi.

This is one of my best drawing. This drawing has made a friend of mine, who was against Yaoi, finds unique art through this drawing. Ok I dunno if that makes sense >_<

I've done sketching this one few hours ago. 

Now that has been set aside I have my dance crew to deal with. I seriously don't know if we're gonna make it to the final. I really really hope we can get in. I've done remixing the song for the final, prepared two samples, and tomorrow morning I have dance practice, I shall let them judge which one is better and if they want any adjustment to it.

Last week I was so pissed off at my dance crew (the guys) because they were talking about how hot those girls from other dance crew are when dancing to Hyun Ah's Change. I was so pissed off that last two days I downloaded the dance version from Youtube and practiced. And today I've 100% memorized the steps and have perfected it. I shall surprise them tomorrow. And due to my stubbornness in getting the steps right, I danced non-stop that by midnight my right knee hurt so much..

I can't sleep until around 4AM.. then when I woke up today, both of my knees hurts, I can barely walk.

No I don't think because I've danced too much. This is a disease I believe, I've suffered since I'm 15. The pain will come at an interval of 6-7 months before.. but now has been frequent to as 3-4months intervals and the pain lasts longer than before.. Last 3 years it only took me half and hour for the pain to wear off.. today it took me a day.. 

Mum said that it was because I lack in calcium, so she bought me a box of milk. Eww.. I don't like drinking white milk.. I usually go for the chocolate diary milk for breakfast everyday T_T


Other than  that we have another new lodger in the house, two months old white kitten. Pure white with cream stripe on his spine. He is so skinny. Dad proudly tales us how he saved the kitten from stray dog back at the city. Now as I am writing this blog entry, my mum is asleep with the new kitten, dad is asleep in the living room, my brother is waiting for our neighbor to come over and play with us. As for me? I'm heading to bed now =3

Tired..

I know.. I haven't been writing for a long time.. but things on my side have been complicated. Problems with my dance crew.. but we've solved it now and performed at Jerudong Amphitheater last Sunday, 2nd May 2010, 1.30pm. All the 5 B boys and me. It was a blast though I'm not that quite satisfied with it..


Still haven't found a job.. there's always complication. Dad won't send me to work. He says its a waste of his energy and fuel, not knowing that I really need the money to pay for a music class. Speaking of that I guess if I still don't have any money by this 8th May.. I have to stop for two weeks and once I have the money, I have to pay $180 instead of $90.. that's double.. how am I suppose to find that amount of money????


I've done a few sketches.. its been a long time I haven't sketch and first try (for a very long time) it was not bad. Though I am not ashame to say I've improved on the last two drawings, still need a little touch up.. then I'll post it up.


Now after a long of what I call 'work' at home and with my dance crew, I came down with a flu.. "-__-
I can't stop sneezing and coughing but I don't have a rise of temperature.. I've taken some medication..


Dad on one side is still pursuing me into handling his business, he says, "The more you sell, the more you'll get." Its just.. not my style.. yeah sure I can act and give a few sharing moments with potential clients but my dad is looking at the wrong group of clients here. He wants my friends to be the clients, my friends, just like me, are jobless. We don't have hundreds. Even if we have a few $50, we would spent it on university and car fuel and such.. not on the products.. He needs to find married, 40s, couple who would sacrifice anything for their family's health condition. Sometimes I hate it when he persuade me to do things I don't like. What I hate the most about him is that he always.. ALWAYS accuse all my friends to be whores and rapers. SHIT MAN!!! He doesn't even know them!! He called a very religious friend of mine a raper. Who would that makes me feel?? I grew up with my friends for the last 10 years and there he go one day pointing fingers and told me not to hang out with them anymore because they're guys, that they could rape me anytime... WTH???


He is accusing us of teenagers being teenagers well guess what dad, I'm not that kind of teenagers. I don't smoke, I don't do weeds, I don't break rules, I don't abandon my family, I don't do shit with guys, I don't go out late and night and come home in the morning. I am NOTHING at all like those whores. 


Lately I've came across a bunch of girl while I was out. Seriously they really look horrible. Chicken legs, wearing skirt but wearing a pair of jeans, thick make-ups that makes them look like parrots, typical wannabes  hairstyles.. I just wrinkled every time I came across them.. and guess what my guy friends said? "Man they look like whores.. and their boobs are petite.. sorry not our taste.. and look at her eyes.. eww!!"


Seriously girls, true guys prefer inner beauty.. a.k.a. your personality. If a guy flirts around with you when you walk across the shop or streets when you are wearing something like I described above? They just want to get in your pants. I'm serious, I know them. Thus the result of that is early marriage in Brunei, tension. Yeah you may get the guy who screwed you up, but he doesn't love you. Once the baby is born, bye bye, he'll look for another girl because he's 18, still young. I know this because at least half a dozen of my friends suffers from it. 


Why can't you girls noticed that they just want sex? 


And I seriously.. 100% hate muslim girls who smoke, or dye their hair or wear colored contact lens, or wear tudongs but with a fucked up attitude. I don't mind if they wear wig or colored contact lens for performance like I did when I was performing Oliver, at least I can take it off. but permanently? Couple of girlfriends persuaded me to dye my hair dirty blonde.. or strawberry blonde. No way.. not in a million years. I may not be a religious person, but I prefer to stick with God's rules.


Enough with girls, I'm really filtering my girlfriends nowadays. 


Oh yeah Mum.. She feels the responsibility of paying for my classes, but I don't want her too. Plus she doesn't have any money. She spent all her money by 14th April paying for my brother's exam fees and loans. I seriously don't want to burden her. I don't... I want to work on my own and make her proud. If only I have a job. Which is why every time I'm a home I'll do my chores. Clean up the house, do the laundry, do the dishes, everything. Just sometimes she doesn't appreciate that.. she will be mad at me instead if I missed doing just one job. Dad is not helping with our financial problems.. Why does mum has to pay everything? The car? the electric bill? the water bill? the wireless? the house? the Astro? Can't dad contribute something other than food?


I've been persuading mum to let me go to work, she said she's ok with it. Only problem is Dad.. "-__- My last job went so badly because he forced me to quit. I feel so ashame to show my face to my colleagues anymore because of my dad. I hate it. 


So I'm calling the shop tonight, I don't care about the pay, maybe it's $15 per day like usual, which I'm ok with. It'll be at my Aunty's boutique. She ran this boutique at the Mall selling Korean fashions. I love it there. I pray that I will get the job. Amin.