One step at a time

I spent all of my afternoon at PTE Katok (Katok Sixth Form Centre) to meet up with my bnad, Triablos. They all still attend school while I have already graduated. I'm the second eldest in the band, the eldest is Jack Iskandar (Guitarist + Male vocalist), third came Izam (drummer). Actually they were only three of us, but Izam brings Yana in as our vocalist.

The reason why I wanted to meet up with them is because I know they have no experience being in a band before.. I realized that things will get harder on in the future because they are sitting for their biggest exams; GCE Advanced Level, and that there's this fact about Izam doesn't have a drum and I haven't bought my bass amp yet. Usually with Lolly de Sora, we jamm almost every weekend. Seeing their faces everyday makes me feel like I'm home. I really admire my old band.. Its because we have an image; gothic punk. They are professionals. My drummer was a graduate from Expression Music. The instruments are complete; at least 3 amps, two drums (one electronic and another is the real live drum), our guitarist is an expert, our pianist can play guitar, drum and piano, we have two bassist, ones a newbie and another starts off as a guitarist. Then later came me, their vocalist. we only done one gig after I joined but it was hell of a fun!! We all dressed as gothic punk from Japan and me being the only one who can speak Japanese in the band makes the crowd thinks that they have imported me from Japan >_<

Now with this new band, I just don't know. I want us to have an image, have a genre (previously we play japanese rock and american rock), write some songs. The reason why we bring Yana in was because she can compose song, then Jack and I will try to put in some melody; Jack starts off, I improvise. But so far?.. .. I don't know. Jack's genre and I are heavy metal, while Izam just rock and then Yana is more into ballad. So when Jack showed us a logo he made (a skeleton with 3 horns), for me its ok, but for Yana.. I don't know. Its just not her type.

I beginning to doubt what we will become. This band is really.. I know we've just started forming, but I'm used to working with the experienced.. the pros. The thing that bugs me the most was, I'm a vocalist, I feel demoted when my position as the female vocalist in the band has been changed to only a bassist and got replaced by Yana. Maybe I am not ready to let go yet.

Yana is a real newbie, she doesn't know stage act, she has stage fright, she can't play any musical instrument.. and I'm really afraid she'll change our image, heavy metal.

They are.. really normal.. I can't see any unique qualities in them. Rather than my old band, sometimes we went out dressing up in goth costumes and watch a movie or so. To us its normal, but to the crowd, its a culture shock, and we like that. Guess I really miss my old band.. We were disbanded in February 2010.. internal conflicts.

I miss my Lolly de Sora.. I miss Hafiz, Kim, Junior, Jazz and Nipi. What we had was really awesome guys.. and I really wish I can jamm with you guys once in a while.

So far for this band, I'll try. Maybe this one is a lucky one. I'll help them out in any way I can. I'll train them if I can. I'll promote them.