Busy busy busy

Wheeee~~~


I can't go online much these days because I have TONNES of homework and research to do >_<


Overall uni life is awesome. I'm still waiting for my allowance which according to the seniors will come out at mid or at the end of september.. NO!!!~~ I need the money T_T 


How am I supposed to live for 2 months without it?? Uni life demands payment and stuffs.. I just don't have any at the moment.. T_T


In UBD I hang out mostly with the girls, which is awesome to me =D And a new beginning since I hardly do that. I spend 12 hours with them everyday. They are Hajah Hanisah and Ramizah. I really like to hang out with them because they're really nice. And we always do study group to review our research and lectures. Its really helpful.


Usually between class interval (usually an hour), I would get kidnap either by Ridhwan or Marvin. HAHAHAHA Ridhwan is a really talented dancer, he's from ISB but then study in Melbourne Australia for his A levels. He's cool, friendly and a Yu-Gi-Oh champion. Marvin is a third year undergraduate student, a close friend of Rid who's now a close friend of mine XD He's chinese, funny, friendly and also a Yu-Gi-Oh duelist. They're far more experienced than me, I've just started out lately and joined the Duelist Alliance (Brunei). Anyway so yeah from time to time I'll hang out with them =D


Influenced by Marvin I join the Brunei-Japan Friendship Association (BJFA), a registered under the UBD chapter and the Japanese Embassy. Basically its like a Japanese club but if there's anything going on in the country involving Japan and Brunei, this association will handle it. How cool is that?? Being a registered member I find myself mingling with them every now and then. The high committees are cool!!~~ And funny~~ We even have sungkai together (Sungkai = break fast, since we're in the fasting month of Ramadhan). Aww man the sungkai was awesome!!~~


We just dine out together last wednesday, though I'm the only junior >_< There were a total of 20 of us.All of them order buffet, except me XD I won't be able to finish it anyway.. AHHAHAH plus Marvin Senpai was the one who's paying for my meal so I want to be conservative but its true, one bowl of chicken teriyaki don and miso soup can easily make me full =D


I've enrolled for Japanese language class too and I have the advantage since I always speak and write in Japanese. The class was really easy for me and I'm aiming to get straight A!!~~ At the same time Ramizah is in the same class with me.I would love to help her score too!!~~


Ahh in the class there's this one girl, Ren, so cute.. >_< She's almost at the same level as me, really fluent in Japanese but I dunno if she can write well.. I wanted to make her my friend but I don't have the courage to talk to her yet. Another one is Mura, a third year student, I really love his sense of fashion. He's the leader of DevianArt in Brunei. So.. I wish I could be in his cosplay team. I'll call him Mura-sama~~~


I was a bit late in enrolling the class because Minako sensei gave me a test to know my Japanese proficiency. Then only would she let me in her class. That's why I only entered the class starting from week 3. The students are of course wondering who I am. In school everybody calls me Shin. And since I always wear formal work outfit, everybody thought I'm chinese.Partially true.


There is this one incident last Thursday. I was wearing loose black blouse with black and white stripe tie, black pants and I let my hair loose. I folded the arm and carry a one-shoulder backpack. Hmm.. to me the outfit was just normal, like really not stylish, just lazily dress like that. I didn't know that to everyone I look cool "-___-


Ramizah said I looked like a pretty boy and she likes it. According to my guy friend, "You turned me on!!" and I'm just like.. ok.. .. .. ..  Then Japanese class, everyone was staring at me.. I was like.. "Cut it out already.. Mura-san dressed even better "-__- "


Basically .. Me + Crossdress = People go wow.. "-__- 


My hair was not even short and I didn't even bind. HAHAHAHHA I don't even consider my outfit that day  as an attempt to crossdress. I just merely sticking to the Uni's code of "if you don't want to wear Baju Kurung, wear formal" which is what I did. 


Worst thing after that mum and dad brought me out to sungkai, my hair was really getting in the way so I tie it like a bun. My brother was having his meal with his friend at the restaurant across. After that he went to the Mall and we waited outside. I went out to buy earrings at Ego Fashion. While I was searching for one, a woman came to me and asked me, "How much is this?" And I go.. "Me? 0__0"


She thought I was one of the salesgirls.. "-__- I was still wearing the outfit since class ended at 5. Nevertheless I got my earrings!!~~ And I'm still thinking if I should pierce my left ear more.. .. hmm.. Maybe not.. but maybe yes =D

Music class yesterday was fun!!~~ Since the Trinity Guild Hall exam is coming up in November, my tutor decided to prepare me earlier. For practical I have to play three songs and another three for section 2 I believe. And I've played perfectly two songs already, moving on the third song next week. And September is coming up, which means the rehearsal for the Rock Concert in November will start soon. And I haven't even memorized the songs yet >_< I'm just accompanying the rock school in two of their songs. A.k.a. I'll get the chance to make more friends =D


I have to admit I still have the hots for Calvin. A tutor, but but but he's just like an idol to me? Like how I idolized Xian Junsu. *melting*


Speaking of Junsu... OMG!!!! His music video for Intoxification is so.. @_@  *nosebleed* I love the choreography!!~~ An memorized them already... HAHAHAH seriously so SEXY!!!


Click here to watch it. Xiah Junsu - Intoxification

Uni life

Wohooo~~~ Sorry late update guys. I've been busy last week with the university. 


How's everybody so far? =D


My weeks are just packed. Last week was Fresher's Week, basically the undergraduates went through orientation. Briefing every morning and afternoon. Really tiring (and even now I'm too lazy to update with full detail)... By the time I got back home I ended up falling asleep after dinner. Every night I fall asleep before 9 >_<


I even hardly went online and I know some of you guys might be wondering where am I. Overall I got accepted into the university under the Institute of Health Science. I'm doing a Bachelor of Health Science, specifically in biomedical science. The subject consists of 3 different modules for this semester and we're supposed to register them again online for this semester. In addition to that we have to make up the modular credit not less than 12 MCs per semester. So my three major modules make up to 10MCs... I took MIB (compulsory breadth) and Japanese languagae (breadth).


Ok Major core is a compulsory core/module for my degree. Breadth module is an optional course that we could take up in order to make up our MCs. Altogether I'm sitting for 18 MCs. If all goes well I'm aiming to get all 18MCs by the end of this semester which is December.


Other than that I'm under the GenNext program. Its a new program in the university. Their aim is to not only train undergraduates to be academically successful while acquiring essential skills for future survival as a human being. Its really interesting. My degree is 4 years, full-time. As I'm a Gen-X, during my 3rd year, if my grades are good, they'll send me overseas for two semesters.


They're ranking our grade using GPA (Grade Points), 5 being the maximum and 0 as fail. I want to aim at least 4.5 for all my subjects. 

The university of Brunei Darussalam is really huge. Getting from one class to another took exactly 10mins of walking. Here's a map to my university. My faculty is the IM (Institute of Medicine), now known as PAP Hajah Rashidah Institute of Health Sciences. 


Here's my schedule, roughly...


Monday: IHS (IM).
Tuesday: IHS, Lecture Hall, Language Centre, IHS
Wednesday: IHS
Thursday: IHS


Imagine me walking from one faculty to another. Really exercise.. HAHHAHAHA


click here to surf the website. University of Brunei Darussalam. I'm under GenNEXT.


Nevertheless the library is huge!!~~~ And really high technology!!! Everything involves computer and machines. Finding the books, borrowing them, returning them.. up to a point of reading them. Some are e-books.


Now this intrigued me to buy a Nintendo DS XL. Why? Because I'm a gamer and because Nintendo DS supports e-books. People advised me to buy an itouch or an ipad instead but I don't want to. I want a macbook as my laptop (currently I'm just sharing the laptop with my dad). Plus I don't want to carry so many heavy books to do research because yeah since I'm studying biomedical sciences, we need a lot and lots of references.. I prefer e-books >_<


Some also told me to use my allowance to get a car. Which I stubbornly do not want to. Mum and my bro however suggested I should ride a bike to school. As in a scooter maybe or a small motorcycle. That'll be awesome!!!! Then again we practice MIB here (Melayu Islam Beraja), and for a girl to ride a bike, people will seriously stare at you here and then nasty gossip would spread. Not that I mind them at all, I'm worried about rainy days. I'm worried about the books.


Besides I need the allowance money to buy myself some books and support my music school. That's my most top priority, supporting my music school. My next class should be this Friday, I've prepared some money for it as well.


Ridhwan (Red) is accepted into UBD. I'm so happy man!!!~~~ Red!!~~~ I want to help him get through the registration smoothly, since he got his offer later than most of us. This week we've started studying, him? Still going here and there for his registration. Alongside with Kage Senpai XD


I love to hang out with them. Its really fun~~~


Last Saturday we had a Fresher's Night at my faculty. We were divided into groups and I'm in Pink. There were at least 16 of us and we were given the task to perform a short sketsa. Its a competition. Its really fun~ I get to meet now people from different faculty and programmes. But because of that, we work 6 days a week last week. Really tiring. 


Here are some of the pictures.

This is the Pink team. I'm wearing pink tudong.

The one behind me, black T-shirt is my long-distance cousin, Aeriena.

The guy besides me is our leader, Didi.

This is Fahmi, from Orange Team. He's my inspiration.

Because of his style and personality, I am able to create multiple characters for my novel and comics.

And Fahmi is cool and kind-hearted.

This is Koh Junyuu. Chinese. Kind-hearted and I have to say.. Cute XD

He's in my team. He really reminds me of my old nemesis.. But Junyuu is a far more better friend.

We have two choices of clothes to wear for university. Either like the one I'm wearing or wearing Brunei's traditional clothing, Baju Kurung, with Tudong, because we're muslims. 

Alright its, 9.30PM here and I hardly play any games nowadays. I wanna knock myself out playing game until around 11? HAHAHHA I have lecture tomorrow morning, must sleep early. Night!~~

Hypothermia..

Dad went to the UBD on Thursday to take my official offer letter from the university. Since I'm currently doing my attachment at RIPAS. I can't go out. So far it was fun~ I learnt a lot in hope this experience of mine will benefits me in my future course in UBD, under the Faculty of Medicine, The Bachelor of Health Science, Biomedical Science. 


Registration would be tomorrow (Sunday) from 8AM until 4PM. When I'm reading all the forms and agreement to be fill, I frowned reading one.. I've been given a scholarship by the Ministry of Education of Brunei Darussalam, informing me that they will be paying for my fee there, for the full 4 years, they would also be paying for my allowances. In exchange, after I graduated from the university, I must, if they want to, work with them for a minimum of 5 years.. .. .. .. .. Shit.. .. .. .. .. .. 


I've been trying to get away from getting a scholarship from the MoE and now I've just got one.. .. *sigh*


Japanese scholarship? No I won't mind =D Its because of the culture where I seriously feel I'm fit in more there than here.


For example in terms of food..


Bruneian food are spicy, oily and fatty.. Its delicious I'd give you for that, but it is also one of the factor that leads of obesity here, I'm totally freaked out by it. I can't eat spicy food. Why?


Because last night (Fruday night), my dad insisted of having to eat at a curry house.. I hate curry.. I just go along. I ordered Nasi Goreng Pattaya (a Thai fried rice). I specifically told them to not add chilli or anything spicy. But they did it anyway.. "-__-  I was so hungry that I just ate it for the sake of my dad.


Next morning (today), I woke up with a really sore throat, I just drink lots of warm water and went off to work. After spending 2 hours in the laboratory, my sore throat worsen.. I feel nauseas too. Maybe because of the condition there but the place was completely sterilize, so there's just no way I'm feeling this way because of the chemical. Plus it didn't affect other people in the same area. So I took the day off and went home. Feeling really sea-sick, I feel like I'd throw up anytime soon @_@


Upon reaching home I fall asleep and once I wake up, I have a fever.. Just shit man.. the temperature there really affects me.. Which is why I hate the cold. 


I don't know when this starts, but I guess since I'm a kid. I can't stand the cold. Yeah maybe to you it's no big deal, just wear fur jacket and stuffs. What you don't know about me is I can't feel the sunlight's warmth.. You can ask me to stand for hours under the sun, I'd just get tanned, but I seriously can't feel the heat. Under air-conditioned room however, the first few minutes is ok, but if I don't grab my jacket soon, I'll be frozen. It'll start off with my nose, then I'd slowly beginning to lose the sensation on my fingertips. Wait for two hours and I'll suffer from chattering teeth and I can feel the coldness piercing throw my bones. Its freaking painful man. Although I can endure it but if I don't get out from that condition, I'll fall ill. It'll take me around 4 hours to gain my normal body temperature.


That's exactly what happened to me at work today. When I woke up in the afternoon my body feels so hot and I got headache.. I just took paracetamol fluid (cuz I seriously hate the pills) and rest up. I've drank a lot of water as advices by my friend in Singapore, Abraham Lee. I've been falling ill this month.. this is the third time.. this month. My condition is worsening..


I seriously need to see a specialist too. My right kneecap is killing me. The pain comes and go every three months or so. Every time it strikes, it's much more worst than before. Last time I fall down when I was shopping. The pain is killing me that I can't move my right leg at all for two days. My mum and I thought its because I lack of calcium, but we're not doctors so yeah I need a specialist to diagnose me. My grandma had the same thing, but she's suffering it on her left kneecap. Maybe its hereditary who knows right? 


Aidi came by to my house this afternoon (around an hour after I woke up). Aidi has been recruited by the army earlier this May and today was his day off at the camp. He said they were allowed to come home once every two weeks. I miss him.. His white cap is still with me XD


It was so nice to see him, he bought along his friend too and we just talked about life. He's the only one who called me Shun instead of Shin or Oshin or Shinku.. .. .. "-__- Shun is like.. a guy's name in Japanese.. but Shin can also represent a guy's name.. *sigh* oh well.. 


Oh my brother bought a bluray movie: A-team. My mum, my bro and I watched it and it was so hilarious!!~~ Murdock reminds me of Ko-ki's craziness!!~~ HAHAHHAHA I enjoy laughing my ass off!!!


Despicable Me is also a really good 3D comedy if you're looking for one. I intend to buy one for mum cuz I seriously enjoy laughing out loud until I cried XD

Soubi and Ritsuka

Natsuo X Youji

Kyouya X Yamato

Loveless. I found the DVD recently and watched it this evening. *sigh dreamily* I really love the story concept of Fighter and Sacrifice. Of about two persons sharing the same name is fate. That sooner or later they would meet each other. I think my favourite pairing would be of course Soubi and Loveless, with Yamato and Kyouya. 


Although they're les and gay, they really shows what loves mean. To sacrifice everything for the one they love and would do anything to protect them. If I were to live in their world, I would be a Fighter like Kyouya. I won't let anything happened to my Sacrifice, but at the same time I would be like Soubi too, I'd do anything and be there for him. Anywhere he wants me to. His words are my orders. Yeah I like the guy to give me orders and treat me like a pet. At least by that I know I'm loved. That's just how Soubi was when Seimei was still alive. 


Nevertheless, eventhough the pairs are bonded like that (you don't need a cellphone to know your partner's location), a bond so strong that it can only be broken by death.. .. I wonder if I had one but he/she died .. I'll be a living corpse, just like Soubi did. Because the concept is that.. there is only one for you. Along the way you might meet a prototype, the one you'd think belongs to you. It will be not until he/she left that you'd started to realized, "Ahh.. he/she's not the one.." 


Yeah if I have a lover later in life, I won't mind if fate bind us together even if my lover would be a girl. If its fate, I'll give all my heart. But before that let's just hope I won't have to meet any prototypes again.. "-__-


Oh my name?.. Hmm.. it would be Scarless. I won't lose a fight and scar my sacrifice. Even if I'm the sacrifice I believe he/she won't stand to see me hurt. I believe in you.. No matter where you are.

Admission

Sai came over to my house on Thursday to study Japanese Maths with me. The exam is on Friday and I really need to toughen up!~~~ XD


We had fun studying~ As in really studying. When we study it was like.. total silent.. .. .. .. .. .. I couldn't stand it >_<


We studied the past year paper, as in the Makubext qualifying paper in hope we could score the exam >_< Japanese Maths are different from the one I study, UK. In a sense that they don't use calculator to make any calculation and the questions are like.. high tech 0.0


On Friday I woke up extra early in fear I would be late for the exam. I have to sit for 5 exams: English, Japanese, Maths, Chemistry and Physics. I really don't care for English.. I've sat for it and its really easy XD Anyway I promised Sai I would be over around 8.30am. The embassy people told us to come around 8.45am. We just wanna come early.. Just to be on the save side.


9AM - I sat for English (Awesome~~ Its easy)
10AM -  I sat for Maths (phew I managed to answer a few questions)
11AM - I sat for Japanese (I managed to answer most questions =D)
2PM - I sat for Chemistry (was quite ok)
3PM - Time for Physics (Insane man.. I didnt even take physics for my A levels. I just study it personally)


My seat was directly in front of the air-cond and I was freezing!!! I didnt even bother to wear a Baju Kurung because this is the Japanese Embassy, not the MoE.. So you could say I don't give a crud. I just wear what normal international student wear. A blouse and a plain jeans. 


Around 12PM I request my dad to send me over to Misato Restaurant. I really miss having Chicken Teriyaki Don as my lunch. When we got there I was like, "Awesooooooooome!!~~" 


I usually go there up to the point where the waitress says, "Irrashaimase Shinku~~" I feel like home!!~~ Dad wanted to seat at a table for 4, but I insisted that we sit on the counter, in front of the Sushi chef. I ordered Chicken Teriyaki Don, miso soup (my favorite soup~~~) and a green tea =D


The green tea is actually really bitter sometimes but I was so hungry that I ate my lunch really quickly and took a sip of the tea so quickly despite its really hot. It taste nothing more than a hot water to me XD I think its because of the teriyaki sauce, its so salty then the tea somehow neutralize it. Dad watched the sushi chef the whole time. He's mesmerised by the art.


After paying for lunch we head to my music school which is just around the same area. Not far from the embassy and the restaurant; only a few blocks away. I request for leave from my music teacher and she said ok, I just need to sign a form. I didn't know I had to sign a form~~~ Yet I was absent for two whole weeks already >_<


Reason why I need the leave for just a month (this July) is because I'm doing an attachment at a local hospital here; RIPAS, from 19th to 24th July and I'm having an orientation week before semester began on a local university; UBD. Actually it was just a lucky guess that the orientation week starts on 26th, but when I checked out the web, I was right XD


I registered for Skype and my first friend I added to my contact list is Farhan XD I call him Hikaru though. Adi is Kaoru and still is Kaoru. I took some crazy pic while video calling with him.

Me with a Choco Teddy Bear bun XD

Ahh~~ Blueberry Danish~~ One of my favorite.

Sunday, Kin unnie picked me up from home around 8.30AM and drove off to the Menglait complex for our dance practice. Supposedly some new kids were going to audition to join our crew but they couldn't make it. Among the list was Adi Rusydi. Who is he? Hmm.. We started off as classmates, then he's my boyfriend, then we separated and now we support each other like we never did before. Yeah I love him, as a really close bestfriend and nothing more. 


Speaking of boyfriend.. my boy finally called it off on that day. I cried, hell yeah.. Who wouldn't..? He's my loyal bestfriend, my twin, my everything.. but when we finally belong to each other.. we feel like we're not.. I dunno.. its just strange.. like somethings wrong.. So he set me free. Maybe its the pressure of being the ideal couple. We've been together for more than a year now. His side are more religious, me on the other hand are not. I like bizarre things that a gf supposed to not like.. example Visual Kei. Its just hard for me to have to hide my true colors just for the sake of being together. 


Maybe one day I'll find a musicians.. a better man who could love me for me. We'll see =) Though what I have in mind is someone like Ko-Ki (ViViD). I really fell for him @_@ I even dream of him the other night~ Even so I don't want to be involve in any relationship now. I want to enjoy my life, living only for my music. I wanna open up to people and see if they can accept me for me and not setting some standard for me so that they could like me. Well that usually happened to me in a production, but my life is not a production. I'm me. If its about cosplaying or acting I don't mind, but my life is my life.


It was still raining in the evening. Lately its always raining starting from the evening and last until the next morning. I fell in love with SID's latest song "Rain" that I did a ballad cover for it. Using a piano as the only background music. Here's the video if you want to hear my performance. I've added subtitles to make your life easier because the song is in Japanese. Shinku - Rain (Ballad version)


Today (Monday), I started my first attachment day. I've requested to do a shadow attachment at the Laboratory Department in RIPAS, but they broken down the sections of the department into days. I only have 5 days so everyday I'll work at different areas. Its really funny because I was supposed to be studying in a uni first before I went for attachment. But this one? I'm doing the attachment a week before my semester starts XD 


I think tonight was one of my most shocking moment as I scrolled down the UBD 1st intake 2010 list and found my name listed as one of the 12 students selected to study Bachelor of Health Sciences; Biomedical Sciences. Mum and Dad was so proud they call their relatives.. I on the other hand couldn't believe my eyes. I actually have 50:50 mindset on getting admitted to the university. The course needs a minimum tariff points of 240 (Grade CCC of A-Levels), which is exactly what I achieved. But I got admitted anyway 0.0


Okay so this Thursday I must go to the faculty and get my official letter of offer, but I couldn't go because I'm having an attachment at the Hematology department that day. Then registration would be on Sunday. Sunday.. that is so unique.. Next thing is finding Marvin!!~~~ HHAHAHHA My senpai so he can treat me ice-cream!!!~


I can't wait to start uni life =D It'll be so cool!! I wanna take Japanese language and join the Japanese club, not for anime, I'm SERIOUSLY  NOT A FREAKING OTAKU. I join for the culture and the passion I have for it. I wanna bully Marv on every opportunity I can get on campus XD And I want to enjoy walking fom one block to the other~ I wanna enjoy studying in the library. I wanna feels what its like to be an adult.


Now I need to sleep. Good night world~~ I wanna dream of Ko-ki and IV tonight XD