Hypothermia..

Dad went to the UBD on Thursday to take my official offer letter from the university. Since I'm currently doing my attachment at RIPAS. I can't go out. So far it was fun~ I learnt a lot in hope this experience of mine will benefits me in my future course in UBD, under the Faculty of Medicine, The Bachelor of Health Science, Biomedical Science. 


Registration would be tomorrow (Sunday) from 8AM until 4PM. When I'm reading all the forms and agreement to be fill, I frowned reading one.. I've been given a scholarship by the Ministry of Education of Brunei Darussalam, informing me that they will be paying for my fee there, for the full 4 years, they would also be paying for my allowances. In exchange, after I graduated from the university, I must, if they want to, work with them for a minimum of 5 years.. .. .. .. .. Shit.. .. .. .. .. .. 


I've been trying to get away from getting a scholarship from the MoE and now I've just got one.. .. *sigh*


Japanese scholarship? No I won't mind =D Its because of the culture where I seriously feel I'm fit in more there than here.


For example in terms of food..


Bruneian food are spicy, oily and fatty.. Its delicious I'd give you for that, but it is also one of the factor that leads of obesity here, I'm totally freaked out by it. I can't eat spicy food. Why?


Because last night (Fruday night), my dad insisted of having to eat at a curry house.. I hate curry.. I just go along. I ordered Nasi Goreng Pattaya (a Thai fried rice). I specifically told them to not add chilli or anything spicy. But they did it anyway.. "-__-  I was so hungry that I just ate it for the sake of my dad.


Next morning (today), I woke up with a really sore throat, I just drink lots of warm water and went off to work. After spending 2 hours in the laboratory, my sore throat worsen.. I feel nauseas too. Maybe because of the condition there but the place was completely sterilize, so there's just no way I'm feeling this way because of the chemical. Plus it didn't affect other people in the same area. So I took the day off and went home. Feeling really sea-sick, I feel like I'd throw up anytime soon @_@


Upon reaching home I fall asleep and once I wake up, I have a fever.. Just shit man.. the temperature there really affects me.. Which is why I hate the cold. 


I don't know when this starts, but I guess since I'm a kid. I can't stand the cold. Yeah maybe to you it's no big deal, just wear fur jacket and stuffs. What you don't know about me is I can't feel the sunlight's warmth.. You can ask me to stand for hours under the sun, I'd just get tanned, but I seriously can't feel the heat. Under air-conditioned room however, the first few minutes is ok, but if I don't grab my jacket soon, I'll be frozen. It'll start off with my nose, then I'd slowly beginning to lose the sensation on my fingertips. Wait for two hours and I'll suffer from chattering teeth and I can feel the coldness piercing throw my bones. Its freaking painful man. Although I can endure it but if I don't get out from that condition, I'll fall ill. It'll take me around 4 hours to gain my normal body temperature.


That's exactly what happened to me at work today. When I woke up in the afternoon my body feels so hot and I got headache.. I just took paracetamol fluid (cuz I seriously hate the pills) and rest up. I've drank a lot of water as advices by my friend in Singapore, Abraham Lee. I've been falling ill this month.. this is the third time.. this month. My condition is worsening..


I seriously need to see a specialist too. My right kneecap is killing me. The pain comes and go every three months or so. Every time it strikes, it's much more worst than before. Last time I fall down when I was shopping. The pain is killing me that I can't move my right leg at all for two days. My mum and I thought its because I lack of calcium, but we're not doctors so yeah I need a specialist to diagnose me. My grandma had the same thing, but she's suffering it on her left kneecap. Maybe its hereditary who knows right? 


Aidi came by to my house this afternoon (around an hour after I woke up). Aidi has been recruited by the army earlier this May and today was his day off at the camp. He said they were allowed to come home once every two weeks. I miss him.. His white cap is still with me XD


It was so nice to see him, he bought along his friend too and we just talked about life. He's the only one who called me Shun instead of Shin or Oshin or Shinku.. .. .. "-__- Shun is like.. a guy's name in Japanese.. but Shin can also represent a guy's name.. *sigh* oh well.. 


Oh my brother bought a bluray movie: A-team. My mum, my bro and I watched it and it was so hilarious!!~~ Murdock reminds me of Ko-ki's craziness!!~~ HAHAHHAHA I enjoy laughing my ass off!!!


Despicable Me is also a really good 3D comedy if you're looking for one. I intend to buy one for mum cuz I seriously enjoy laughing out loud until I cried XD

Soubi and Ritsuka

Natsuo X Youji

Kyouya X Yamato

Loveless. I found the DVD recently and watched it this evening. *sigh dreamily* I really love the story concept of Fighter and Sacrifice. Of about two persons sharing the same name is fate. That sooner or later they would meet each other. I think my favourite pairing would be of course Soubi and Loveless, with Yamato and Kyouya. 


Although they're les and gay, they really shows what loves mean. To sacrifice everything for the one they love and would do anything to protect them. If I were to live in their world, I would be a Fighter like Kyouya. I won't let anything happened to my Sacrifice, but at the same time I would be like Soubi too, I'd do anything and be there for him. Anywhere he wants me to. His words are my orders. Yeah I like the guy to give me orders and treat me like a pet. At least by that I know I'm loved. That's just how Soubi was when Seimei was still alive. 


Nevertheless, eventhough the pairs are bonded like that (you don't need a cellphone to know your partner's location), a bond so strong that it can only be broken by death.. .. I wonder if I had one but he/she died .. I'll be a living corpse, just like Soubi did. Because the concept is that.. there is only one for you. Along the way you might meet a prototype, the one you'd think belongs to you. It will be not until he/she left that you'd started to realized, "Ahh.. he/she's not the one.." 


Yeah if I have a lover later in life, I won't mind if fate bind us together even if my lover would be a girl. If its fate, I'll give all my heart. But before that let's just hope I won't have to meet any prototypes again.. "-__-


Oh my name?.. Hmm.. it would be Scarless. I won't lose a fight and scar my sacrifice. Even if I'm the sacrifice I believe he/she won't stand to see me hurt. I believe in you.. No matter where you are.