Woke up around 8.30am after my mum opened the curtain and sunshine stung my eyes =.=
There's a Career Carnival at the International Convention Centre, Berakas, that starts from 13th-17th April 2010. I don't have a job at the moment.. At Elken, I'm still under training. So I've seek for job vacancy this afternoon after my piano class and sent my CV to Standard Chartered. Whilst collecting application forms from KFC, Jollibee, BIBD (Bank Islam Brunei Darussalam) and getting in touch with JPMC (Jerudong Park Medical Center).
JPMC is a private sector and I think is the right category for me to be in because of my qualifications. I have obtained 9 O levels and passed with straight C in Biology, Chemisty and Mathematics in A-level exams. I targeted being a lab technician. I find it fun, like imagining I'm a CSI and identifying samples from patients XD
I noticed something about me.. and now its starting to annoy me. I noticed that I like to be left alone. Maybe its because of my past.. I once had a bestfriend, back in my childhood.. we grew up together for 5 years until in Grade 6.. he make new friends and we grew apart. He never even want to acknowledge me as his friend.. I guess that had taken me aback.. so strong that I have a hard time trusting people. I always kept a safe distance..
Yes I may look friendly and cheerful around people, but once they turned around at the end of the day, I didn't even bother to call them again. I just let them drift away. Never did make the effort to communicate again unless necessary.
Especially girls.. I've never been a good company around girls. I dunno.. maybe to them I'm.. weird?.. Weird as in, I cook, they don't. I understand guys and live harmony with them, and they can't. I love visual kei and they love.. barbie like?.. They like UK and always dream of meeting the most handsome guy and I don't. I like cute guys, not handsome or muscular guys.. I'm very open-minded in a way that I favour gays and bi-sexuals.
I dunno.. I just feel more comfortable and at ease around guys.. Girls are just sometimes.. to me.. annoying in a way.. they make a big fuss over a small matter.. "-___- For example..
Girl: Oh my god!! You ate my snack!!
Me: Oh.. sorry.. I'll buy you a new one.
Girl: Do you know how much that cost???
Me: Yeah.. 90cents.
I mean.. shesh.. "-__- Or when at the time that one of them was broken-hearted because her partner disappointed her. He apologized for like a hundredth time saying he didnt mean it but she stills cries over him for like weeks.. And refuse to eat, refuse to sleep and always ended up in the hospital. IT IS SO STUPID!!! Because the guy is waiting for her at the front door. She can just open it, make up or what-ever and everything will be ok again. Instead she go for option B.. Weep and wither.. "-__-
Stupid man.. ..
I guess its because I grew up with guys. They taught me stuffs.. like.. don't gossip, its a waste of time, help out your parents, be loyal, mean what you said, take responsibility, don't mingle with bad guys, don't smoke, don't dye your hair, be natural. Most importantly although I grew up with guys, I'm still me. I don't wear guys clothes or being a bi (as in being les). Its just.. I owe them a lot for shaping me up as I am today. Without them I don't ever think I can see things simpler and not complicated as how girls should be..
Okay you know what?.. I don't think this makes sense.. "-__-
I'm girly.. but not that girly.. I hang out with guys; play games, skates, basketball and stuffs but I'm not a tomboy. And no I do not fall in love with them easily.. I take them as my brothers and really brothers.. We look out for each others (me and the neighborhood).
Technically.. I find befriended with a guy is much more easier than a girl. When a girl cry, I do know how to handle them.. but.. it just doesn't feel right.. More or less one of my bestfriend, a girl, I prefer calling her my girlfriend because she's the only girl I trust more than the others, starting to make me feel bi.. "-__-
I cosplay before, usually female characters but lately (after I had my haircut last November), I keep doing visual kei looks that if I wear a pants, my girlfriend will say, "YOU'RE SO CUTE!!!~~" and then will cling on me for hours.. "-__-
Cute as in cute like a guy cute.. with my pale expression and layered bangs. Even after Oliver! (I star as Oliver Twist in the production).. I learned how to bind myself (as in binding my boobs to make it look flat) and it worked.. I totally looked like a 16 year old cute chinese guy.. and that makes her drool over me even more.. HAHAHAHA
Me as Oliver. Left is Artful Dodger
At times its hilarious at how easily I can fool girls if I bind myself but at the same time.. ITS CREEPY!!~~ They look at me like they're about to eat me up and stuffs.. really unpleasant feeling.. >_<
A Sagittarius once complemented me.. she said..
Sagittarius: SHIN!!! OMG!!
Me:.. what?.. 0.0
Sagittarius: You know what??
Me:.. What??... 0.0
Sagittarius: You're so cute if you wear mini-skirts and tie your hair~~
Me: .. err.. Thank you.. (is she a les???)
Sagittarius: But then again Shin..
Me:.. y-yes?..
Sagittarius: You can be a cute guy when your hair is short =3
Me:.. .. .. .. .. ..
Sagittarius: Come here and let me hug you Usagi-kun!!~~
Me:.. .. .. *ran half a mile away from her*
Sagittarius:.. SHIN~~~~~ T_T
HAHAHHAHA one thing about me is I like to joke around and bully people XD Its hilarious~~~~ And my innocent face is an advantage because they never suspected this side of me (the bullying part). I bullied people a lot and they didn't even noticed until they think twice and finally look at me with big eyes. My grin gave me away.