Piano

Woke up today searching for Shiro (my ginger cat) because last night he was sleeping with me. Long story short, picked up my brother from tution class, went to Sumbangsih Market, have my lunch, went back home.

I forgot about my piano class which was why I rushed last night practicing three pieces which my teacher, Miss Michelle gave me for my homework. Then polished it around 1PM before running off to class at 2PM at Expression Music at Kiulap.

Miss Michelle advised me to polish up my rhythm.. I understand why.. I am at Grade 1 now after starting off this January, currently learning Jazz and Blues songs today. I wish I can warped Grade 1 by June.. then again what's the use of advancing so fast when I haven't mastered the techniques very well. I'm just at "Good".. I want to be at "Excellent".

Studying at Expression Music to me is a blessing, its' my dream school and finally I can study there. I am 18, turning to 19 this June, taking piano class. I feel uncomfortable every time we have choir practice (Its every Friday at 5.30-6.30PM), maybe its because of my age as most of the students there are kids from different races. Expression Music is a very high-class and prestige music school. The students there are generally from high-class people.. so me from a normal family (shall I say that?) have a hard time paying for my tuition every month >_<

This evening, we were practicing choir and then everytime I sing, there is this girl in front of me keeps looking back at me.. like I sang the wrong note or something.. but the teacher said that I hit the right note, she even make me their example.. Maybe I'm just paranoid.. but she keeps looking back at me for like nine times >_< Its freaky.. Maybe my voice is loud.. I dunno.. I just don't like being observed or stared at.

Other than that I am in a very tight financial problem. I was supposed to buy a textbook today but I really don't have any money.. and I am not working. Car broke down, dad won't send me to work anymore. I quit last January. 

I really wish I can work so I can at least buy some food for me to eat and pay for my classes in the future.

On the bright side, Fawzul got a job =3 

He is working at a bank and I am really happy for him. Around 9.30PM today I had a sudden urge to call him.. Out of the blue.. I miss him. I called him and guess what, he was just about to call me >_<

I really love him, I can see my future with him.. everything. He's the reason of me living now, there is no other man that can love me as much as he does. Its really hard to explain.. but I love him.. very much.